Tosha McLaren's "Lies My Mind Tells Me" & Personal OCD and Anxiety Testimony


Featured in July/August 2018 issue of TOI Magazine

I was inspired to create the book after suffering since a young girl from OCD and then as an adult, PTSD and panic attacks. The book is super unconventional because I'm super unconventional. I was sick of doctors giving people no hope when I knew from my own experiences that they were wrong. See, people who suffer from anxiety are a different type of person. After all my years of doing this I've realized that. Ive realized that they have certain personality traits that other people just don't have. Many of them are extremely empathetic people with huge hearts and that plays a significant role in both their anxiety and their healing. Doctors want to give you pills and send you on your way but I want to show people that that is ONE way, but it's not THE way. I never ended up taking those pills myself and I have severe OCD and was often told that I needed these pills to get better. I feel like people really need a success story and people really need hope. People also need to know that they don't need to rely on pills in order to get better. I think people need to feel empowered in their own lives and in their own mental health care. This book does that and I created it because I knew that's what I needed, so I figured that's what other people needed too. Anxiety sufferers need to know that they can take control of their life back without prescription drugs.

My own experience with anxiety has been quite the long haul. It started when I was very young. My earliest memory of it was lying on the floor in the bathroom crying on Christmas Day when I was about 8 years old. I remember hearing my family laughing in the living room while I sat on the cold dark floor. I was terrified that this would be my last Christmas with them and it's something horrible is going to happen in the year to come. I was always terrified of that. I would wash my hands until they bled , I would have to walk through the door several times and switch light switch is off all the time and everything was done in numbers.  I was convinced that if I did these rituals that I would prevent horrible things from happening to my family . When I grew up the obsessions begin to change. There was a lot of variety of  different obsessions and compulsions as the years went on. Unfortunately, I ended up experiencing PTSD after several traumatic events in my life, which I talked extensively in my book about. I had a lot of drama in my life in general. I began to have panic attacks and anxiety attacks as well as an adult. My life has been challenging to say the least. That's why I felt the need to write this book. To give people hope and to see what I've been through and how I've overcome.

I just have so much confidence in this book because I've seen what it has done already in people's lives. It's quite miraculous really. I never expected it to reach as many people as it has and to change as many lives as it has already. I created a 40-day program at the end of the book that I think is one of the most important parts of the book. It really helps to start to shift the mind in a way I haven't seen before. I'm a bit of a self-help book junkie so I've seen and read a lot of different approaches. I basically have taken different approaches that I've learned over the years and all the things that are in this book are things that have actually helped me immensely in my own recovery from anxiety as well as addictions. I really wanted to write a book that teaches people with anxiety not just to overcome their anxiety, but to have a better life than even the average person without anxiety out there. This book helps people to get clarity on their dreams and helps them to get excited about life. It’s not just about overcoming anxiety it’s about having an amazing life. If people read this book and actually apply the things in the book, their lives will literally never be the same.  I know that sounds very cliché but it’s just the truth. I wrote this book to help people and it does just that.

"I'm a huge music person. Classic rock is my passion! I literally learned how to read by reading the lyrics of Bohemian Rhapsody on my aunt's old Queen album. My husband is actually a musician and that's how we met. I loved his band back in 2005 and a mutual friend introduced us and the rest is history! I'm an anxiety coach and work with both children and adults. My background is with kids actually. I used to work for the school board for years and years and have a huge passion for the youth. I enjoy photography and you'll see that influence on my social media pages. I like to try and combine all my interests and somehow link them into my business. I have a bit of a dark sarcastic sense of humour that you see in there too a little, I have a lot of passions and interests. My most significant passion is God and my faith. I grew up in a Christian home but after getting turned off by the way other Christians acted, I kind of turned away from it for several years. Unfortunately, there is a lot of that going on in the world right now. Christians are getting associated more with hate and anger than love and kindness and it’s a gut-wrenching shame. After my health started going down a scary path, which I talk about in the book, I found my faith on a whole new level. My beliefs have literally got me through and if it weren't for God, I wouldn't be here right now! I'd love to eventually be part of a movement where church is redefined away from judgement and closer to love. Many people out there right now working hard to do that and I just thinks that's the coolest thing! Hope it's ok that I say all this in here! I just think it's an important message to get out there for people suffering." (It's totally okay to say it here Tosha!! God IS a healer.)



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