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PTSD, depression, anxiety, social anxiety and OCD make me feel...
Trapped, ashamed, fearful, hopeless, crazy, different, excluded, unloved, broken, frustrated and angry.
What do I tell myself when PTSD, anxiety, depression, etc attack?
I think on my goals. I remind myself of God's promises then count the blessings of each and spend time thanking him for each.
I change my focus from the negative" hellish" side effects/symptoms/attacks of PTSD to thoughts of what is good. What is beautiful. What is kind. On love. On God's creation and mercy.
There's always a rainbow behind you and in front of you.
And if I may give one bit of advice to anyone out there struggling and at the end of their rope. Flat on their back.
LOOK UP. Jesus is a friend that sticks closer than a brother. I couldn't survive one moment of this monster without Him. And He LOVES you!
Erica also credits her sister (@annieegallagher) for always being there to support here through thick and thin. "She has been through this journey with me and has proven to me time after time that she's with me through the good, the bad and the ugly. She's taught me a lot though she's younger than I am. And she's the one I told you about starting our podcast together. I can't wait!"
Follow her on Instagram!! @lilsnuff78
My anxiety and OCD began as early in life as I remember. Being raised by a single mother who struggled with the disease of addiction and the instabilities that came with that, were ultimately the trigger for my disorders. Anxiety often made me feel uneasy with change, angry when things didn’t go as planned, and fearful of what could happen in the future. My OCD would cause my to fixate on the unknown and then control whatever was in my power-my routines, grades, relationships, etc. My Anxiety and OCD tendencies made it difficult for me to feel like I was understood, stood as barriers in many relationships with friends and significant others, and challenged me to overextend myself past what was expected of one individual. I didn’t stop until I thought I had reached perfection. This left me feeling severely burnt out in early adulthood. When it came to others, my expectations were often unrealistic. I would often push others away before they had a chance to see my flaws and insecurities. My disorders convinced me that I needed them in order to appear “strong” and “in control.”
What do you tell yourself to counter the thoughts of anxiety that try to occupy your mind?
Today, I still have anxious and compulsive thoughts, but I am daily learning how to counter these thoughts, with gratefulness. I am grateful for how far I have come, I am in love with the journey of growth, and I speak positive affirmations over myself and my life. When negative thoughts enter, I dig into God’s word, communicate with my support system, push play on my workout, and make other healthy choices. Mindset is everything! What you believe and speak becomes your reality.
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